well well well.. finally I have settled down and move into a new place is located in one of the Suburb in Victoria. This is the first time that I live in the Suburb...For the past 3 years, I stayed in the city.. so can said it is very convenient...Definitely I have lots of night lifestyle in the city... Now I move into the Suburb ... not that bad actually..drive to the city or catch train takes 20mins... However, the travel distance from my home to my workplace takes 40mins. Train approximately 20mins then tram 10mins.. Quick a long journey, so everyday I have to wake up early and get ready to catch the morning train. If not, I will be late and it will pack inside the train!! (no more sleep in..) + _ +

The different between Suburb and the city is...... lifestyle.. I feel at home in the Suburb. Now I am living in a duplex house compared to last time I lived in an Apartment. Every year I moved to the same area and stay in the highrise building apartment which I can see the view whereas suburb is mainly bungalows, gardens and some small town areas. Not bad though, I quick like it... As if all my friends are here. SE (southern East area).Before I move into this place, I'm always worry that I cannot get used to it... But, now I feel like I am staying at home just like being back home in my country. I feel good.. For sure, the area and room is much bigger than the previous room that i had. Show you guys my new place.. the quality of the pictures not very good.. I am staying with 2 friendly housemate and I have a room with ensuite toilet and walking wardrobe. I can put more clothes inside my wardrobe wakakaka!!!!

     Obviously the "ding ding dang dang" that hooked on the walls.... not my stuff, my housemate hasnt move all his stuff in his room..

Past 2 weekends I was working.... and busy moving house.. and now all done.. I feel exhausted, I havent get a chance to rest well.... Now, the only thing that I havent settle is ..... my visa! I still have to WAIT!! a bit frustrating... HeLP!!!

Time flies... Another 3 months is end of the year and Autumn Festival is just around the corner... My mom purposely asked my aunt to bring it over... mooncake from my town. Love it! I want with the egg yolk.... "shanghai mooncake" is my favourite.... Does anyone can tell me where can I get it from here??

I had been trying hard to get my English exam passed.... I have traveled around the Australia to take the exam.. and last blog I mentioned that my result released on Friday and what happen was... I havent get there yet!! Honestly, I pretty confident last time, I have no idea why it could be like that.. I am so depressed when I got my result.... I locked myself for a night, dont feel like eating at all...so depressed and disappointed to myself.. The next day because of work, I have to force myself to cheer up... the past few days weren't that good.. I dont know how to tell my parents and friends about my result.(I know everyone is worried about me... and they dont really want me to leave..they feel so sorry to me) I pretty confident.. I totally lost!! I dont know what to do!!!  Meanwhile, I went to Darwin last week and took my english exam which I applied last 2 months ago... I couldnt concentrate on study, I fed up already..... however, this time I think I take it easy.. I dont really care much AS I have prepared myself to go back... my mind, my thought, my move.. I just feel like going back... I think I am lucky because I'd been here for 3 years and I got my friends,workmate and 2years working experience in my industry... I earned!! I totally agreed myself with this point.

Besides, currently I am staying in a level 30 floor apartment which facing to the city... Nice view. I have my own bedroom ensuite with bathroom...day time, I can look up to the Blue sky.. and night time, the view is magnificent, Amazing! All my friends who came to visit me envies and love it so much...... for sure, it is a bit pricey and Last time because I stay with clemence and now he moved back, and I have to handle it all by myself.... Not long, I have to move out as the contract is end up in september.....

I am counting the day... I dont know what is my plan... I will take it when it comes and I am ready myself.. that is no point for me to worry so much, just do what ever I can.. I dont want to think too much or plan anything... Plan will always changed. it is changing against the time... So, take one step at a time!!!! I discussed with my family, they will support my decision.. and I dont think it will be "THE END" If I go back for good.. right?

In Melbourne, one of the reasons that make me happier is hanging out with friends.. especially my dear and my babe!!! they are my best friend ever.. and all my friends in melbourne.... my job, I think I can get it anywhere.. but Truth friend is difficult to find... right! when you get used to it.. you dont feel like letting Go!!! that is the best time to hang out with all my friends in Melbourne.

On the other hand, I went through lots of things by myself, Within the years my thinking, my move and my words are totally different from the first start that I arrived in melbourne. I learned a lot! Same as the time that I joined the pageant in Malaysia and International. The difficulties that I faced and the way I'd gone through..not EAsy! I pretty sure everyone have their own experience. That is the way to make us become tougher.  I know I have a long way to go... havent reach "Quarter of my life"...so enjoy the moment that I have and be appreciative to the people who really care and love you..  ;P

Time flies... today is 1st of June... Half of the year.... Wow!!! another 6 months will be 2010. Not so soon, we have to plan for Christmas and new year..how to decorate our Christmas tree, what kind of presents we have to buy for our friends and family.... and next year will be quarter of my age. 25!!! Well, life goes on... We still have to work and eat... nothing much special.....

今天有一位和我一起度过很多甜酸苦辣的人。。。要离开。。。墨尔本了！我们两个人一起来，但今天是他一个人回去..在这几年来我真的要谢谢他对我的照顾..没有你的日子我会好好的照顾我自己..不会给你担心..你也要好好保重..去做你想要做的事..我相信毕竟以后你会是一位很成功的人..我会为你祈祷..祝福.. 我会记住我们的回忆....

Wish you All the Best and Good Luck!!

Today.. we went to lunch together!!! and this time, I really can see your real person.. real yourself back to the life!! which is good for you... You may not realise that I do not talk much ... and I let you to talk everything... Because I know you keep inside your heart for such a long time.. and I know that the decision of letting you Go is a good thing to you.. and you learn to be yourself and no need to be so suffered to be with me!!!! I know in past 2 years, you always get scolded by me.. my High Volume voice to shout on the phone and you still can stand it.. I know I wouldnt get anyone like you anymore..... In fact, the first 2 years... you did something to me.. but I never said a word.. and Now you go to tell your friends that how I treat you.. and YOu never protect me.. I feel so stupid that I always protect you in front of the pp.. Everytime if someone talk bad things about you.. or my family talk something bad about you and I will stand out and said something Good for you!!! have you realise it???  I dont think you do!!!

Beside,each time we talked on the phone... no matter I shout/scold you... my heart is bleeding and hurting.. after I hang up the phone, my tears will automatically fall out from my eyes!! Will you think that is easy to speak out?? why I will suddenly silent on the phone? hang out the phone without a word? you never think of it? you said I never care about your feeling... Yes! Maybe you are right, I never care about your feelings. I just shout at you in front of public. but HAVE YOU CARE ABOUT MY FEELINGS when you do something silly?? does your friend know about your silly thing that you have done? I dont think you have tell them.

You asked me to eat more.. and tell me I am losing my weight... have you feel tasteless on the food and you do not feel like eating it?? I did!!! I dont really eat much because I cannot taste the food!!!

Four and the half years.... You said I do not understand about you..a?? do you know what are you talking about??? Seriously, now I realised I don't really know you well.  I feel so sorry If I have hurt you... but I want to tell you, you have hurt me deeper than what you have gone through past few years..

I wish you all the best and good luck in your future~~ and I know I am doing a right thing to let you go...